Today got off to a bad start. First of all my alarm didn't go off. It was set for 2:00 in the afternoon. (I'm a night owl). I got dressed in record time and raced to the library for a 3:00 PM meeting with someone from the library who had volunteered to help me with my blog. He wasn't there; he was out sick.
The worst part was that I had skipped my morning routine: my affirmation session and my morning exercises in order to meet him. To try and salvage the day, I went to my friends house for coffee knowing I had to be back at the library by 4:00 PM for a board meeting.
I had a nice visit with my friend but lost track of time and was 5 minutes late to board meeting. 5 minutes might not sound like much but when you walk into a room where 20 other people are all in theirs seats around the large table at their assigned seats, it feels like a very bad thing.
After the meeting, I stayed behind and apologized to our board president (who happens to be a personal friend) for being late. She graciously replied, "That's okay." I responded by saying, "No, it isn't. I'm turning over a new leaf. I hereby announce my decision to be on time next month." There were still a handful of board members lingering around who witnessed my moment of faith in myself and my ability to change. They smiled indulgently.
It's a small thing, but I'll take it as a moment of adulting: apologizing and committing to be on time next month. Stop laughing. It could happen.
Welcome to my blog. My blog is not about Scientology. It is about the life I am building for myself now that I have left Scientology. And now that I am in my Velveteen Rabbit phase of life. My blog is about sharing my ordinary day to day struggles and triumphs. I've been out eleven years now. Still learning how to be "normal" again.